Duh. (Sorry Mom, it's the only appropriate word.)
Yeah, OF COURSE I know I'm not God.
The funny thing about those lies we believe is how ridiculous they sound when recited back to us. How silly it sounds that I, Caitlin Park, believe and expect that I am capable of perfection. Perfection of which only our holy and righteous God is capable.
I started reading this book, Lies Women Believe and the Truth That Sets Them Free, thinking that it would be a good summer read. Funny, actually the book wasn't what pointed out my faulty thinking. Oh, irony, how I love thee. Here I am, reading a book about lies, all the while believing one myself. Thankfully, God uses all sorts of methods for getting our attention. So I ended up having an ah ha moment last night when someone pointed out that um of course sometimes I'm going to be annoying, and do things that don't make sense. Caitlin, you're not God. You're not going to be perfect.
I don't know why I always come back to this. I don't know why perfectionism seems to be my struggle. But I'm thankful for these moments of clarity, in which I can look at myself and say, "Caitlin. You're not God. You're not going to be perfect."
Amen. I sometimes struggle with that expectation of perfection as well. Not only of myself, but of others. Thanks for writing this.
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Rachel A.
I love realizations like this one. There is definitely something freeing in the knowledge that we're not going to be perfect, and yet God still loves us. In fact, He couldn't love us more even if we were perfect.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're not perfect, cuz I'm not either . . . now THAT would be a lopsided friendship, eh? ;) I love you just the way you are. You have a beautiful soul and a beautiful face with a great smile. What would I do without you? Thanks for the great food for thought here, dear. :)
I'm totally there with you Caitlin! I am very much a perfectionist, and it can really get to me... alot. But this is something I've been forced to remind myself quite frequently. And God isn't finished with me yet. :) Thanks for the encouragement!
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