Difficult Solidification

This week has not gone at all as I had planned that it would. Not. At. All.
I find it so ironic that the week which started out with a freeing epiphany (I am not my grades!! My grades are not me!!) later found me in tears, weeping because I was scared about what not clinging to my 'A' student identity would mean. On Monday night I declared my freedom. Tuesday afternoon I was setting up an appointment because of an unexpected health issue. Something had to give, and that something was my homework. By Friday I was back in my familiar chains.
At this point I am feeling much better, and ready for a break.
In one of my classes last week, we talked about how in our relationship with God we aren't constantly growing, but rather has seasons of both growth and solidification. Right now I feel that I'm in a solidification stage, and it's restful, but also painful. I'm past the learning stage and in the application season. I know what needs to change, now it's time to actually take that knowledge and apply it...and it's hard. But it's good.

Now back to homework...:)