I've been on a music kick lately. Well, more accuratley...I've been on a music kick for my entire life. My mom can tell you all about how easily affected by music I have been from a very young age. But recently it seems there have been a lot of songs that God has used to remind me of truths which I have forgotten, or that express exactly how I have been feeling.
This week I've been thinking about how I relate to God, and how I think he thinks of me. Sadly, I'm realizing just how distorted my understanding of God is. Well...sadly probably isn't the right word. It has been sad, but at the same time, recognizing these distortions has also been healing.
This week in chapel, I have had the opportunity to listen to the teachings of a beautiful woman who truly loves God, and has a wonderful understanding of his love for her. Watching her talk about her Father was truly beautiful. The contrast of her beautiful truths and my ugly distortions have been very challenging.
As I was getting ready for work this morning, I was thinking about God, and some amazing things which I just love about him, and it just felt so...right to be loving God. The song, I Have Loved You Wrong came to mind as I reflected on where I've come from and where I hope to be going with my relationship with God. While not originally intended to be a song from daughter to Father...this song somewhat captures the theme of my week.
I am so thankful for God's patience with me, for his unchanging love as I fail and doubt and forget so often.
Not sure where you got that music influence from. Hmmm?
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to your thoughts on loving god and realizing our way of relating to Him falls short of His desire and design for our relationship. Prayerfully this wrong can be made right as we open our hearts to Him,the Great Relationship Restorer.
I love your heart, Caitlin. Your desire to grow and know your Lord better is a challenge and encouragement to me. :)
ReplyDeleteGod bless you, my friend!
Rachel